Yes, I linked them. I don’t mind what you do. Read, follow, don’t read, ignore… It’s up to you. I won’t hold back on what I post there, because it’s my diary. You’ll be reading my diary that I only update every two weeks, when I get some time off. Also, don’t worry. I have issues, but I’ll deal. I always deal.
I know you don’t hear me too much, mainly because I am generally shy even on my own blog, but I just wanted to say that I am still here. That there is a person behind the blog, and this is relevant to all the blogs on tumblr. I think sometimes we forget that. And to those people, those wonderful, funny, beautiful people, I’d just like to say that even though life if hard, and sometimes all you want to do is just end it because it becomes unbearable, remember that we are here. Tumblr is here.
Essentially, what are online friends? Words, letters typed on a blank text box sent from someone miles and miles from you for whom the sun is quite possibly at a different stage in the sky. All you see are the letters - but behind them is a person who really doesn’t want you to not exist anymore. That person thinks the world of you and the internet is the only way you communicate. When you see a friend of yours - or even not a friend, just someone you admire - post that they wish for their lives to end, that they are cutting again - it breaks their heart.
It breaks my heart. I live in constant fear that something will happen to my real friends - my friends online. Because these people are truly the ones who know me best. So, please, keep this in mind when you think there’s nothing to live for. There IS. There always is. I’ve heard people say that it even gets better. I wouldn’t know, but I’ve heard that’s what happens. So let’s live long enough to test that theory, ok? Let’s test it together. All of us. I love you. Please talk to me if it gets hard. Please. <3
Tomorrow (the 19th) I am leaving to go on a four week intensive course of some sort, which means I probably won’t be around as much. I’ve queued up a few posts so y’all might still see me on your dashes but not for long. <3 I’m gonna miss you, tumblr - AND DON’T LET SOPA HAPPEN. PLEASE.
‘Til next time!
Once AGAIN, I made the mistake of opening tumblr on a lovely Friday midmorning, having momentarily forgotten that a new Vampire Diaries and Grey’s Anatomy have been released the day before. THEN SUDDENLY MY HEART MISSES A BEAT BECAUSE ELENA AND DAMON ARE KISSING ON MY DASH AND I FLAIL ABOUT LIKE A GIANT MAD CAT. And THEN, I see things about Zola. AND MY POOR BRAIN IS GOING INTO OVERLOAD.
All before I’ve actually seen the episodes. So, thank you dear me, for forgetting to DOWNLOAD FIRST, TUMBLR LATER. First rule of watching shows; it’s a rookie’s mistake. Psht. I swear, it has to be because of the break. HMPF. Silly breaks. I DON’T LIKE BREAKS.
Anyways… Gonna go watch some TVD and GA now. You know, so that I won’t be MORE spoiled the longer I scroll down my dash. LISJDFILSJDF. I STILL LOVE YOU TUMBLR. <3 Peace out.